Yesterday I caught a newborn baby.
Yes, with both hands.
The little boy (actually not so little, over 8 pound) came out so fast, I could only get one sterile glove on! Too much information?
I was in midwifery mode yesterday and worked a shift at the local hospital.
It has been a while since I actually have been in the birth suite and caught the baby in the traditional way and not via the sun-roof.
It has been awhile for a number of reasons: a long maternity leave, moving towns and the big one is that I had let my fears and past experiences in the birth suite take over my ability.
You see, being a midwife is not always as fun as we make out. Sometimes things go wrong and for me, I tend to absorb that too much.
Often these experience’s are out of our control, the lady doesn’t progress as you would have hoped, the baby gets distressed, a complication in pregnancy, causes complications in labour.
Before I left my old job, I had a run of not-so-nice birth suite shifts, that have basically taken over my confidence and ability to be the midwife I want to be for my patients.
So yesterday I got back on the horse. I had nominated myself to be in the birth suite and what do you know? Someone was watching over us and I got my midwife mojo back.
I caught that baby boy and for the first time in a long time, I realised that I do love my job. I am meant to be a midwife.
And I do know what I am doing. (Which is always a bonus)
Sometimes, it is just hard to see the wood for the trees.
Have you ever left fear take over your life or shut down a piece of your inner mojo?
Taking part in the March Digital Parents Blog Carnival over at Emily’s Have a Laugh on Me blog on the 8th of April 2014